I do have to say that my time in my studio lately has been patchy. I have been distracted, finding excuses. This summer was so hot and so dry that I did not think it would ever cool off. This week has been glorious. cool temps, rain, gorgeous skies and clouds. I feel like winter may approach quickly . In anticipation of winter , I prepare for my trip to India with my sister , Cori.
I am working a lot now to bank some vacation time so that I do not take an entire month without pay. Thus some of the reason for my lack of painting.
Today I received the most amazing package in the mail. I wish i had photographed it . The packaging was like the most amazing Christmas present i have every received. I found out about a company that is right here in Grand Junction , Colorado. A patient of mine works for the company. They make handmade watercolor paints and she , such a doll hand wraps every block of paint meticulously.
I splurged!!! For the last year I have really resisted buying paint because i had soooo much. I have forced myself to work within the realm of what I have , with some exceptions. It has been a great exercise. Waste not is my motto. But in anticipation of my upcoming month in India, knowing that traveling light is important as is continuing to express myself through my paintings I decided to purchase a set of these water colors. I have never done watercolor! It seems like the only option for traveling. This was going to be my Christmas present request but I learned that these paints go fast so I jumped on the wagon to buy. The packages are so tiny but I can see that they are power punched with natural, organic pigment. They are expensive but wow...
I want to dive into them now. But i think i will not. I will now look for the perfect paper to travel with and will preserve this precious mineral pigment for when i travel. Stay tuned for what may come. ..... I cannot wait to work with these natural pure pigments while traveling in India.
The company is called Greenleaf and Blueberry. right here in my small city.
I have been invited to exhibit at the Church Night Club in Denver on December 7th. See the link below for details. I do have to pay for my space and if you buy a ticket, it reduces the amount of money I have to pay but that is only if tickets are purchased before December 2. Tickets are $20.
Otherwise please come as my guest. As i have many paintings and they are on the large size i would love to buy a double space which increases my cost so if you can support me that would be greatly appreciated.
I see this as a very valuable experience for me as an emerging artist who has done very little "showing".
I am asking my friends who are local to please come and support me. If you would like to buy a ticket you can do so in the link below.
For those who are far away, I am sure you are present in spirit.
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The sun, the light, the clouds, the colors, the roasted acorn squash. Still warm enough to grill our dinner outside. I got to go on a beautiful desert bike ride today. I thought about the fact that November holds Thanksgiving. My favorite holiday. For me November is about gratitude. Do I struggle and feel pain ? Of course. There are some things in my life that make me very sad. But I do have a lot to be thankful for.
As I got home from my bike ride and the light and color was perfect I went to my studio to sign a painting and prepare it for shipping. I walked through my studio and my home and I was stopped at every corner with all of the paintings that hang, sit and lie in my home. How did this happen? How did I create this? Some no longer lie near me but they are scattered around the US. But how did this left brained, logical, scientific ish person do this? What started back then during a very difficult time has left a huge story. I love every single painting and they ALL speak. If they don't, I am not done. I have to share this!!!
I have to have a show! Not for the purposes of selling my art though that would be a bonus but to share it. My paintings blow my mind, soothe my soul, light my light, and ease my burdens. I honestly am humbled at this time of reflection to see what I have created. I need to show it. I am planning an open house at my home on December 2nd ( for those who are local) but I am not sure that i have the sufficient space to show it. It will definitely be a great start. This is my moment to manifest.
I SEE A POP UP GALLERY. For one or two nights. It will be a gathering of people, a sharing of light, snacks and cheers and art. It may not be this year, but it will be. It will be amazing. If you know of a great space that has great energy, great light. and you can get my foot in the door. ideally not too far away. speak your truth. I am ready to share my stuff!
I am not an artist who actively seeks to be in a gallery. I would if it felt good. But I do have a lot to share. I see a space with big walls. A sort of industrial commercial space. food, cheer. people, friends, support. A portion of proceeds to be donated .
And so to abundance and gratitude this November. For all that is.
And for all of this , I am very thankful.
As I return , and transition back into life , I can finally tend to the news I got yesterday as we were exploring the Grand Canyon,
When i look back at my move from Maine to Colorado 6 years ago there are things that stand out. It was HARD to leave Maine. my heart is still there in many ways. It was amazing to come here and get my student loans paid off . It was great to be in Colorado again after being away for 20 years.
One of the most amazing things for Kelly and I was reconnecting with Cathy and Toby. We met when we were kitty corner neighbors in Lyons, Colorado . We were having our babies. We shared stories and drinks and projects and recipes and Gardening! Our babies played together. It was a friendship that mattered .
We then left so i could go back east for medical school . We kind of lost touch but Cathy was so great about Christmas cards. It was a thread of connection. It happens that I got an offer for a job in Grand Junction that would pay off all of my student loans and would bring us back to Cathy and Toby who now live on the western slope and are peach farmers amongst many other things.
We have now been here for 6 years. Cathy and Toby have been our best friends. We share food and gardening and travel and drinks and friendship and real conversation. The ones that are hard to have sometimes. We have spent many amazing moments together loving life.
While we were in the Grand Canyon yesterday, with limited service we received word that our dear friend Toby left us.
Because of our many conversations, I know that he is free and dancing with the angels. My dear friend is left to pick up the pieces. These moments are so profound. They leave you speechless. I am not sure what else to say but we will somehow figure out how to carry on without Toby.
There is a serious absence in my life at this moment..... a void. what will replace it?