It is Thanksgiving. One of my all time favorite holidays of the year.
I has been small and quiet. I am on call so close to home . It was Kelly and Lucas and I. At first i felt very sad about that. But after talking to my mom and my sisters and my daughter Hannah who i will see in a couple of weeks and Keenan who is hoping to arrive tomorrow... it is all a blessing.
This morning i went to gratitude yoga and It was the most perfect way to start the day. It was a very physical practice with alot of balancing poses. It was also a very emotional practice for me. Thinking about gratitude and what is beneath that. For many as well as myself there is alot of messy stuff. Like the forgiveness that you wish for for that thing you said or did. the grief for that person that has not arrived at the family table. and the tendency to feel lonely for those you miss deeply. For that loved one who's health is failing that that empty nest that is not empty :) . But Lucas is at the table and for that i am grateful.
Matt encouraged us to look at those feelings. the grief, the sadness, the regret and the resentment, the pain and the loss. It is about being human and it allows us to feel that we are alive.
Our experience with gratitude and grief and sorrow is ours. It is unique to each of us and it is what we as humans are obliged to feel. It was so amazing to sweat and to bow and to reach for those feelings and to take them in and let them go and to above all else be grateful for those experiences. And how grateful i am for the ways that my body carries me. My body has been so good to me and my health is vibrant.
today has been a beautiful and simple thanksgiving day. My cup is so full at the moment.
Sending love to all of my friends and family. This is thanksgiving
May we feel balance in that which we give and that which we allow ourselves to receive